Thank You For Standing By My Side

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Hello Dearest Reader,

A quick hello… I’m working on a Breast Cancer Awareness post since Pinktober is clearly upon us again, but in the meantime I just want to pop my head in after these months of silence. I’d like to thank everyone who has reached out to me in some way, who has continued to read & follow, who has shared my posts, or who has had a kind thought for me and/or my boys. You are a warm light in my life and I am grateful…

I apologize for this long & unplanned hiatus. I know you’ve said not to apologize and that I don’t need to feel pressure to post. But I do need to apologize. This blog should be an account of the best & worst of my story and everything in between. But when I feel at my worst and when my anticipated posts take a negative turn, I struggle with hitting the “publish” button, feeling my words may be too negative, or that my writing may not be good enough because I’m not feeling well and am not putting my best foot forward.

I need to push past this for sure… Especially during the month of pink. The truth is, this experience, my life since diagnosis, has not been pink. It has not been pretty. Have some elements been wonderful & bright? Yes, definitely! There have certainly been moments, hours, days that have been special & sweet. These moments are often because of kind, compassionate people who have touched my life or my boys’ lives in some special way during these years. And for that I am thankful.

But I will never be grateful for cancer. This story is filled with good and bad, ups and downs. And I know in my heart that these twists and turns need to be woven into my written story if I am to share the truth of this experience.

Thank you so much for standing by my side, for reading, following, sharing my words, for reaching out to me, for sending kind words, thoughts, wishes for my boys or for me. You are a bright light in my life & I am grateful…

Warmest wishes to you all…

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14 thoughts on “Thank You For Standing By My Side

  1. I have continued to keep you in my prayers over all these months. You are often on my mind. Whenever I see Camp Good Days, I think of you. Please know that I will help you in any way I can, I am sure I am within an hour’s drive of you. Use your strength to love and be with your two beautiful children. Although we miss hearing from you, we understand the strength it takes just to write sometimes. Take care of yourself first and foremost.

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  2. You don’t owe anyone an apology — write when it works, don’t write when it doesn’t work. It’s that simple. There’s nothing pretty about cancer, and there’s no need to try and “pretty it up.” Here’s hoping we all get through Pinktober without punching anyone!

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  3. Hey, girl 🙂 Lovely to see a post from you. Don’t worry, don’t hesitate, don’t doubt. PRESS PUBLISH. Blogging is good for you, and reading your posts is good for us too, however much you may feel that they could affect us. I’ve been following your blog for so long now that I’m thrilled to see you post, and to read it. Sending you big gentle hugs xoxo

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  4. Although we’ve never met, you touched my heart – I think of you often, and if my prayers and support count for anything, you have them all. Please don’t hesitate to publish – I’m always glad to see a post from you. You have absolutely no obligation to be always cheery and positive – we’re here for you (perhaps even more so) for those bleaker times too.
    Ady in Israel

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  5. I read your article on Huff Post and followed the link to your blog. My mom had a double mastectomy 12 years ago. I’m not going to go into how she felt because you know. When you talked about the “pink” products in October and how people buy these thinking they help the cause, I thought, wow that’s exactly how I have always felt about it. Finally someone said it outloud! Thank you for beung honest and thank you for sharing those great links to foundations that actually use the money raised for research. I wish the best for you and your family. Keep blogging. We will be reading.

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